In most instances, I feel out of place. Not in a “I shouldn’t be here” sort of way, but rather, in a “I’m a fly on the wall” sort of way.
I like to sit back and observe when I’m out and about, watch people and listen to their conversations. Most of the time, I find their conversations humorous, and it makes me giggle to myself.
Especially if I’m bored, or my mind wanders, watching others have a fun time will pull me back into the present, and for a moment, I’m having fun simply by observing. Watching a couple dance with their kid, seeing an elder couple hold hands and giggle like school girls, a group of guys having the time of their lives by acting goofy; taking it all in and enjoying it like I’m a part of it all.
There are times when I do feel like I’m right where I’m supposed to be- when we go out with friends or when I’m on a adventure by myself. A sense of serenity falls over me and I feel as if I merely exist. No expectations, of me or anyone else, and it’s relaxing. No pressure to do anything. For a brief moment, no responsibilities, no cares in the world about anything. All my stress and troubles melt away.
What are your thoughts on the matter?