Soul Searching

“I am out with lanterns, looking for myself.”

-Emily Dickinson

When was the last time you did some deep soul searching? What did you find? Stop what you’re doing now and reflect. Write down a few things you just realized.

I realized how exactly unhappy I was with my life a year ago, and how much it affected my emotional and physical well-being. I felt like my talents were being taken advantage of. Whenever I tried to voice my concerns, I was met with an attitude that was ” just business”. This ultimately gave me the answer I was looking for – to move on. I didn’t feel like I was getting anywhere with my personal goals and that no matter how hard I tried, they weren’t going to help me out. It also made me realize that I had actually been in denial for several months, ignoring the fact that I was unhappy. I was repressing my anger and frustration, only making it worse. After leaving, I was left with an intense amount of feelings that needed working through; depression, anger, confusion, and more. I decided – no – I promised myself that I would never allow that to happen again. I am done putting the needs of my job before my own personal needs. I am not alive to work; I am alive to live – and that’s exactly what I plan to do.